New Life In An Old Man

Throughout my life I’ve tried pretty hard to be an example of a God pleasing man,
To study my Bible and pray to the Lord and be at our church when I can.
I’ve worked with the youth and sang in the choir and did trustee stuff for ten years,
But ever since camp and the truth Paul preached my heart has been troubled with fears.
For over a month I conquered those fears and rationalized them onto the shelf,
But as our Pastor preached from the Gospel of John it caused me to examine myself.
It made me to doubt my condition with God or to know if I was a child of the King,
And holding my life up in front of the mirror didn’t reveal one God desiring thing.
But all of that changed on October 15th as the power of the Holy Spirit did start,
To “blow as it wishes” like it says in John 3 and continued convicting my heart.
My palms got sweaty and my pulse raced higher as panic had really set in,
For I knew that my heart was no place for God because it was black with my sin.
I didn’t do business with God there at church because Satan was holding on tight.
Trying to convince me that I was just fine and that I was doing everything right.
That’s when it hit me, that I was the problem, that I was the one causing the strife,
That I was a sinner headed to Hell because I didn’t have Christ in my life.
So I went and got Laura and she sat by my side as I prayed and confessed all my sin,
And I accepted Christ as my personal Savior and surrendered my whole life to Him.
Now because of this change in my spiritual life it threw a few things in a lurch,
Like having been baptized back at age 12 and the status of my membership at church.
So after meeting with pastors and deacons and such baptism did follow to show,
My first act of obedience to the Lord of my life as a testimony for everyone to know.
It’s been quite a shocker to my family and friends my children and even my wife,
But I give God the glory and thank Him and praise Him for giving Jeff Martin a new life.